Undecided

"When you try your best, but you don't succeed When you get what you want, but not what you need When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep... Stuck in reverseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (...)"

I'v been singing that out loud in my head ever since this unkind morning started. (Due credit should be give: Fix You, Coldplay)

I do not feel too good today. I want to write. But there's this huge difference between wanting to write and being able to write. It's one of 'those' days where I write and I delete. Like convincing my alter ego that yes! it has been published and you have spoken the uneasiness out.       

Very argh.

And while I was having a lovely time at work, my social life seemed to have coiled itself up into a ball of complications and the ball seems to be speeding downhill and I got no time at all. No. I'm not the kinds who'll go running behind it screaming frantically. I'm sitting at the top of the hill. Staring at everything below me. Picking at blades of grass.




I have become very judgmental and I hate this thing about me... but can't help.In all possibilities I love my work.Sunday seems such a waste with no friends around.
  
I do not like people around here anymore. I just do not like them in general.I have a bunch of people I like and..........

  I want to be left alone on a planet with them.

 I just don't like the rest of the people anymore.