Not Sure I Understand...

 "I don't wanna die
But I ain't keen on living either".

Life goes through many seasons without any reasons.

 

Like, there will be this phase when you will smile patiently and try and not act wild and butcher the world into tiny tiny pieces, then that one phase when you won't stop grinning because somebodies ass is on fire, then one where you will find yourself a hot neighbor,one where you are happy coz your 'crush" got a job,one where you are sad coz more than half of your salary is gone as Income Tax coz you were too spend thrift throughout the year to save some.

But...

I have this perpetual feeling of nothingness inside me, joys don't make me happy, sorrows don't make me sad,nothing makes me angry,I am turning out to be such a chilled out soul but, I constantly have this emptiness , a blank, a clog you can say.

Not sure I understand...

May be its the monotony,where I'm ice skating through my days. Except for the 'ice skating' bit, it's true. Like, you know, going zooom zoooooom zoooooooooooooooooooom through the day and then the speed breaker is when my head hits the pillow and then repeat. 

I think I need to gift myself a vacation, a long one to some distant place.