My Fate

I was woken to the euphony of sound of the birds. I took my cup of tea and went to sit in the balcony with Robie William singing 

"I don't wanna die, I ain't keen on living either " in the background. 

I went to the bedroom and picked up "The Big Red Book" and lowered the volume of the song, and started flipping through the pages.

My mobile beeped 

"Do you even sleep lover boy?"

"A little" I replied.

 She texted again "Hehe.. you and your insomnia!". 

And without wasting a second I quoted Rumi "When I am with you, we stay up all night.

When you're not here, I can't go to sleep.

Praise God for those two insomnias!

And the difference between them."

"Gosh! you are sweet" she replied.

"But you are sweeter my sugar pie..and by the way that was Rumi." I texted back.

And we were silent for a minute.

And I texted again "Can we catch up?"

She said "I am not sure. I have a lot to do"

I asked "Tomorrow?"

She said "Look truth be told, I feel little odd after all these confessions of yours. Will you be fine?"

And again I quoted Rumi

"I want to see you.

Know your voice.

Recognize you when you

first come 'round the corner.

Sense your scent when I come 

into a room you've just left.

Know the lift of your heel,

the glide of your foot.

Become familiar with the way 

you purse your lips

then let them part, 

just the slightest bit,

when I lean in to your space

and kiss you.

I want to know the joy 

of how you whisper more"

She instantly replied "Looks like you are  having Rumi for breakfast"

"Can I have some "sugar"  for lunch tomorrow?" I asked.

"Sure thing." She replied.

And there we were sitting across the table.

She was all smiling and blushing and were discussing some random shit.

And suddenly the music in the background changed and the song was "Tujhko Jo Paya..", I smiled and we talked some more while she ruffled her hairs and my eye fell on the mole on the back of her neck and I controlled the urge to kiss it.

So I asked "This is your favourite song. Right?"

She blushed "I don't remember telling you this"

"I remember it like yesterday" I replied.

And she blushed  some more.

She said "How do you do that?"

I asked " Do what?"

"Can love someone so much" she retorted.

I replied " Does the sun promise to shine. No, but it will, even behind the darkest cloud it will. And no promise can make it shine longer or brighter. For that is its fate, to burn until it can burn no more. So, likewise its not my promise it's my fate."

And we went to parking and talked some more till the sun went west.

Phuck That Shit!

My mobile beeped 

"Is there some place to sit at departure"

"No" I replied.

"What to do?" She asked.

I said " There is some, at arrival"

"Cool, see you at arrival". She replied.

And there she was, in that button down pink chequered shirt which she left open with black vest which was all glittery and "Shoot for the Stars" written on it, and that blue Levi's which she always like to wear with those pair of adidas sneakers which we

bought together, I saw her walking briskly toward me. Her hairs were brushing her pink cheeks, and there was a big smile on her lips. Her eyes were full on excitement, as she saw me and her brisk walk turned into jog she waved from a distance and she shouted "Hi! Abbas." I waved back and jogged towards her and we hugged. She whispered in my ear "Long time" 

"Quite literally." I said.

I took the backpack she was holding and led her to 'Vangoo'. As she entered and saw the name 'Vangoo' she giggled and said " Don't tell me, you started eating South Indian food."

I ensured her I didn't, it just because it's windy outside, and ordered filtered coffee for both.

We took the corner seat just like old times, and as I brought the coffee, she was still smiling looking at me and as i sat she said

 "Its great to see you" "Likewise" I said.

And than she asked " What's on your reading list?" 

And i told her how the other day, wide awake at two in the morning and worrying about love and life, I decided I needed Shakespeare-therapy. So I shuffled through my book shelf and picked The Tempest.

And explained her.

How over the past year, I have come to realize there is no quick read like a Shakespeare and he actually has wisdom for every occasion.

And she asked "Do you know what Miranda said about Ferdinand in the play."

I started scratching my head, than she quoted "There's nothing ill can dwell in such a temple: If the ill spirit have so fair a house, Good things will strive to dwell with't."

I laughed at this and she patted my knuckles and said "I mean it".

And asked me to work something for my insomnia.

And than we were quite for a minute looking through the glass wall. 

And she spoke again and said " You know what Abbas, I still remember the day when you cajoled me, to ask him the last time and his reply is still imprinted on my mind "Sunnn....right Now i know this decision is looking hard to take..but in future u will thank yourself that u took the right decision..." 

Bloody hell! He was right and I really thank myself for braving the hard times. And look at me now, all hale and hearty. Me without him, is like me always, it was just my creative part gone wild."

And then she cupped her face and was quite for a minute. And said " Enough about me.. You say, when are you getting married?"

I asked " When are you planning a kid?"

She said "Phuck that shit"

I said " Exactly! Phuck that shit!"

And we both laughed insanely.